Life's Little Lessons

It's Beginning to Look a lot like Christmas...

2011-11-26T10:37:00.000-08:00

Jordan and I ventured to the mall on the weekend and saw the Big Jolly Man and thought...oh I need to get Zach's picture taken!! I want to record the firsts and I love being able to take my son to see the fun characters :)

Eight Months

2011-11-13T19:04:00.001-08:00

Oh My Goodness!!! I can't believe how fast time is flying by!!! My little tiny baby is 8 months old!! It is just crazy! I know everyone says it goes by so fast and it's true. I have loved every single minute of being Zach's Mom. It's been an incredible journey so far! I can't wait to see him continue to grow, learn and change! But please baby boy...not too fast!! :)

* I had an opportunity while we were up north again to have Shannon Vine Photography photograph Zach for a mini-session....it was so worth it! I love her photos and can't wait to use her again!! :)

Happy Halloween!!

2011-10-31T05:45:00.001-07:00

Happy Halloween from our family to yours!!! And we ain't LION :) teehee :)

Trust

2011-10-19T08:50:00.000-07:00

My brother-in-law and sister-in-law have started a new blog called "Life With You". It's a marriage blog aimed to help newer couples in any issues/questions they could have. Help encourage communication, face problems and have a better, Godly marriage. It's quite interesting so far, even though they just started it! :) But I think it's a good read and I know I need to help improve myself in order to make my marriage better.

Their post about Trust is really resonating with me. I don't trust Jordan right now. It's hard. We have special difficulties and it makes it very hard to trust him. I know I need to, I must learn to trust him, but it's especially hard.

I am hoping that by losing weight I will be a happier person because I won't be so angry with myself all the time and in turn that will make me a happier wife, mom, etc... I will keep their post in my mind each day and will probably read it multiple times!!!

So if you are looking for some encouragement in your marriage, head on over to "Life With You" and read, comment, converse!!! :)

DONE, DONE, DONE

2011-10-19T08:45:00.000-07:00

THAT'S IT!!!!! I'm done being half-assed (sorry for crude word, couldn't think of anything else...). I'm done doing things partly, only trying some of the time. I"M DONE!! I'm so mad at myself for not having the will power, stick-to-it-iveness.... I"M DONE!! I'm done letting sweets have control over me in such a major way! I NEED to lose this weight...not want, NEED. I've GOTTA do this! I HAVE TOO!!!!!!

I have been tracking with weight watchers and "trying" for 6 weeks now and only lost 5lbs. I keep going up and down, up and down and I'm done with that. I keep complaining that my jeans don't fit, but who's fault is that?!?!? If I'm not willing to do something about it, I'm not allowed to complain!! So I'm going to try and keep up with my weekly posts here to put it out there as well in a group I'm in on facebook. So here are my goals for this week:

GOALS:
- Drink 4 water bottles a day
- Eat more fruits and veggies!!!
- RESIST!!!! I WILL have will power. I WILL have will power...
- PRAY specifically for people in the group for specific goals - if you need a specific prayer from here leave me a comment.

please, please, please pray for me. I know power of prayer works. I am going to make it a priority to make time for prayer as well. I think having God in my corner to do this will make it better.

Sleep Training

2011-09-28T07:48:00.000-07:00

I have had enough. I have had enough of waking up 13, 000 times a night to a baby that needs to be rocked, fed or cuddled. NOW don't get me wrong...I LOVE rocking, feeding and cuddling with him...but when I get ZERO sleep because of it, it becomes a bit tedious. I LOVE Zach, I love him more than anything. I want to watch him grow, play, love, become a Godly man. But, I also want him to sleep through the night!

So, Monday evening I decided we're going to start sleep training. Monday night was a little rough, he took an hour to go to sleep, was up quite often and needed a lot of our pick up/put down (PU/PD) method. It was a long night and I didn't get much sleep. I can tell you specific details if you want to know, since I am tracking to see if there is any pattern in his wake up times. But we did it. He stayed in his crib till 7:30am the next morning.

Nap time on Tuesday went OK. He slept well in the AM nap for about 45 minutes and went down easy-schmesy. Afternoon nap wasn't so successful. Took a while to get him down and then he only slept for 20 minutes. But since we are following the baby whisperers advice and trying to keep him on a 4 hour eat/sleep plan, it was time for him to eat. So only a 20 minute nap did he have. Jordan and I had an errand to run so we left him with a sitter. Came home, he wasn't the happiest baby, but he wasn't doing too badly. He was happy to see me. We had a good play, he was able to wind down and i put him down for a third cat nap. He slept for another 40 or so minutes.

I was worried about bedtime on Tuesday that it would take a long time, I would have a very upset baby and I would feel my tension start to rise and worried I may just relapse and go back to what works....BUT....he did fantastic!!!!!! He was asleep at night in 5 minutes with just one PU/PD. Almost every time he woke in the night, his soother and a pat on the bum were sufficient. YAY!!!! He woke at 4am for a feed, was back to sleep 1/2 hour later. Had to do 20 minutes of PU/PD at 6am, but then he slept till 8am!!! He then came into our bed for a little snuggle and to let him know we are still there, love him and want to snuggle him. I made sure he didn't fall asleep again so as not to associate coming to bed with me as sleep time anymore.

I know many people who advocate for co-sleeping, not sleep training and letting the child lead. But it just doesn't work for me. I can't/don't sleep well with others in my bed, especially snuggled right up next to me. I need sleep. I need sleep to be a good mom, because otherwise I'm touchy, angry, frustrated easily and it's not a good environment. This new sleep schedule will work for our family.

Nap time today is going OK so far. Jordan tried to put him to sleep, but Zach got way to upset. I know you're not supposed to take over, but I just can't give over my control like that and listen to Zach cry when I know I can stop it. I know, I know, it's not what I should be doing, but I'm working on small baby steps!!

So now, I am praying that sleep just gets better and better. I know we will have minor setbacks and I am prepared for them. I am preparing myself to not give up, continue with our efforts and I know we will be rewarded.

I can do this! Zach can do this! We can be a healthy, loving, SLEEP-FILLED family!!!!

Weeks 25 - 28

2011-09-24T14:01:00.000-07:00

My lil guy is growing up sooooo fast! I can't believe that he is over 6 months already!! He's sitting up on his own, eating solid food, rolling over like crazy and laughing up a storm! I love him so very much and love seeing him grow up!

Setbacks

2011-09-18T17:00:00.000-07:00

Well today was not a good day food wise. I don't know what came over me, but I just did not think today while eating. I kept putting things in my mouth than 5 minutes later wondering what happened. Why did I do that? Why didn't I stop myself? I ate too much. BUT I did something I never do....I didn't just continue to eat crap, I didn't just stop caring and give up, I stopped, I reevaluated and I decided to make a change at the next meal. So for supper I had a slimfast, oranges and a cottage cheese. I changed my pace before I spiraled out of control. I caught myself. I never catch myself and start over.

I know this time will be different. I know I will have setbacks or days where I don't think about what I'm eating, but instead of giving up and just throwing in the towel and eating more crap, I will start over. I will accomplish my goals!

Just thank goodness weigh in isn't till Thursday!!! :)

Week 3

2011-09-16T17:18:00.000-07:00

Well Week 3 is officially done and I am proud to say that I have now lost 10.6 pounds since I started Weight Watchers!!!! WOOHOO!!!!! I think I am actually going to be able to stick with this. I have not wanted to "cheat" very many times and when I just can't resist I eat a little snack and then I document it honestly. I have managed to stay inside my point value...in fact I find it hard to get all my points in some days. I am truly loving the weight watchers program!! It is so easy to follow, easy to use (as there is an app on my phone!) and I'm finally being honest with it!!!!

I was hoping to get at least 3-4 walks in this upcoming week as well, but I have come down with a nasty cold making it really hard to breath when I get my breath going....so until this darn cold goes away looks like I'm benched!! But I figure as long as I keep my food going well I should still be to lose weight!

So here's hoping week 4 is as successful as the past 3!! :)

2011-09-10T13:13:00.000-07:00

Here is the collages for weeks 21 - 24...basically up to 6 months. I think I labeled stuff wrong but I wasn't quite sure how to label the pictures! Technically this isn't his 6 month shot, so is it month 5? Oh well, I guess I may have to re-do all of them! But anyways, here it is!

Papa

2011-09-09T18:39:00.000-07:00

August has NOT been a good month for me. August has been terrible. On August 1st I lost my father. It is the most tragic thing that has happened to me so far in this life. My family is crushed, my mother is without her Love, I'm without my dear Papa and my brother is without his Dad. I will one day write the details, but I just can't yet.

We miss him so much and I still find myself tearing up daily thinking about my precious Daddy.

One thing I am thankful for....he got to meet his Grandson, Zachary. He was soooooo proud of that little boy, he loved him so very much! I now know why God allowed me to get pregnant when I did.

Well my brain isn't working so well tonight and I think I need to go to bed. I know this was an odd post and I will post more about my Dad, but this is all I can handle tonight.

Here is the picture that we had at his funeral. Still makes me cry...miss you so much Papa.

3-in-1

2011-09-09T18:25:00.000-07:00

Well I forgot to post the 3, 4 and 5 month collages! Enjoy!!

p.s. if anyone knows how to fix pictures effectively on a blog please help a sister out!! i had no idea how to move them....

Week 2

2011-09-09T18:18:00.000-07:00

Well week 2 is finished and didn't do so well this time. I went up 2.8 lbs. I didn't eat well, but I was walking so I guess food is truly 90% of it all. I stuck to my points though so I'm not entirely sure why I went up so dramatically.

I recommitted after my last weigh-in and have been doing well again. Here's hoping this week can be a better week.

Today wasn't the greatest eating since we traveled all day today. I didn't get to drink my water (for fear of always having to pee!) and I had Wendy's for lunch. I tracked my food, I was honest, I didn't hide my fast food outing at all. I stayed within my points. Tomorrow if I can get up the will I need to go grocery shopping and get everything I need. But first, I think I need to prepare a detailed menu plan and grocery list so that I don't go off balance again.

This is hard! I love food, I love eating, I love tasting. I know it's not about denying, but in moderation, but it has to be about denying to an extent. I have to deny myself fast food everyday, I have to deny myself the pleasure of eating chocolate as I was. Now, how I was eating wasn't healthy, wasn't right and wasn't good for me. But it was wonderful. I truly believe I am addicted to food. I know it's not an excuse and I'm not using it as one to keep eating. I am done being fat and I know exactly what to do to get it to leave. Now if that will power of mine would just make the commitment to me and stick around!!

Week One

2011-09-02T18:03:00.000-07:00

Well here I sit. Week one is done. I lost 3.8 pounds by just managing my food. I did manage a walk one morning, but I forgot to bring my shoes to the Sault so I had some BIG blisters from my sandals. Now I have my shoes and am just waiting for the next moment to walk. I like walking in the morning because it is fresh, cooler and gets my day going. I am hoping for more morning walks when my sweet little son wakes me up oh so early!

So back to the 3.8...woohoo!!!!! I think it's great and I want it to keep going. We have had several meals that weren't the best because we were out. Also, how does ice cream become so appealing the moment I am trying to eat healthier?!?!?!? But, anyways, I want to keep up the loss so I will keep trying, I will keep making wise decisions and I will keep drinking my water!!!

Gotta keep going, gotta keep losing, gotta do it!!!!!!!!!

It's a new day!

It's a New Day...

2011-08-25T17:31:00.000-07:00

Well here we are again. I am at my wits end. I'm done with being fat. I'm done, I'm done, I'm done. I want to be healthy for my son and future children, I want to look nice for my husband and most importantly I want to like my body!! So here we are again on my next weight loss journey.

I have joined Weight Watchers Online and am going to track my points. I have also started a slim fast program with my mom. I'm hoping that with the combination of the two, support from my mom and the fact that none of my jeans for fall/winter will fit me right now is reason enough!

I know I have started weight loss journeys before, stopped, started, stopped, started...but I AM DETERMINED this time!! I am done! I am done being fat, I am done turning sideways to squeeze through somewhere, I'm done seeing my fat arms in tank tops and having to stretch my tops so that my rolls fit. I AM DONE!

So if you see me, ask me how it's going. Ask me if I'm following my points. Ask me how I'm feeling.

So here's to making a life change and as the weight loss song by Jennifer Hudson goes... "It's a new day....and I'm feeling goooooooddd" :)

Two Months Old

2011-05-17T15:09:00.000-07:00

Zachary's Birth Story

2011-05-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

Well better late than never I always say...here is Zachary's birth story.

On March 8th, I had my regularly scheduled midwife appointment for week 40. When they checked my blood pressure I was a little high. They reccommended that I go into the hospital the next morning for a non-stress test (monitoring baby's heartbeat). I went in that day, was checked, wasn't dilated, wasn't progressed at all, but my blood pressure was still high. The OB on call didn't want to induce me that day for fear that it would send me for an emergency c-section so she put me on blood pressure pills and sent me home with instructions to come back in on Friday morning to be checked again.

Thankfully my mom arrived on Thursday evening so she was able to come with us on Friday morning and be my driver! So we went in at 8am to be checked and possibly induced (gelled). Zach's heart rate was still good, I was only dilated 1cm and he was still very high. However my blood pressure was still high, so the OB said why wait, it's my due date, let's induce. They inserted a gel onto my cervix to help soften and dilate. My midwife (Taryn) and the nurses warned me that it would cause some cramping more than likely. Cramping....UNDERSTATEMENT!!!

So after I was gelled they sent us home for a bit to relax and get some sleep. We did some running around in hopes that some walking would help it along. Cramping progressed and i did feel the occassional contraction. The pains were in my back quite a bit. We got home, had some lunch, I wasn't that hungry and I tried to lay down for a bit. I was rather uncomfortable and the cramps were quite regular so I didn't get much sleep. We headed back to the hospital around 3pm and if I was progressed enough we'd stay for labour or I could be sent home with another gel insert.

We arrived at the hospital, the nurses checked me and I was only still 1cm and not having regulary contractions. The OB wanted to gel me again and decided that I should stay at the hospital and be transferred to her care from the midwives. This meant that Taryn would still come for the delivery and care for the baby when he was born. So there goes another gel and man did the cramps pick up!

I felt like I was in hard labour -- even though every one of the nurses kept telling me I wasn't technically. We walked the halls, Jordan rubbed my back, I moaned and groaned in pain. At 10:00 that evening I was in a lot of pain and hoping I could get an epidural soon! My nurse (Darlene) said that I couldn't get an epidural till I was at least 3cm because it would stall what little labour I was in. Well when Darlene checked me to see how far along I was it was the most excrutiating thing ever...and the sad news...I was still only 1cm!!! I was praying right then and there for a c-section at that moment. I was done, I was tired, I was in mass amounts of pain, I was done! The Doctor came in, checked me and didn't want to give me a c-section. She wanted to see if I would progress on my own. She offered me morphine, the possibility of breaking my water during the night and then oxytocin in the morning to see what happened. I was crushed! I wanted to see my baby soon, I wanted to be out of the pain, I just wanted a c-section.

So I got the morphine shot. It felt like it did nothing. At this point it's midnight. I told my mom to go home and get some sleep since nothing may happen till morning and we'd call her if something happened sooner. We got moved into an observation room and Jordan was given a bed to lay down in and try to sleep. I couldn't lay down so I sat and rested in a rocking chair.

I dozed on and off and at 2:30 felt like that the morphine was wearing off so I asked for more. Darlene told me to empty my bladder and she'd check me again...maybe I could get an epidural instead of morphine! So I went to use the washroom, sat down, felt a huge pain, lots of pressure and I stood right up. Then my water broke. WOOHOO!! When this happened the contractions started hard and fast. Darlene checked me and i was 7 cm! I could finally get the epidural! So while Darlene set that up I was going through contractions every 30 seconds. Jordan's sweater got quite wrinkled from me grabbing on to him. But let me tell you, the contractions were much more manageable over the cramps!!!

After the epidural it was bliss!! I was able to rest for a bit, close my eyes and finally relax. However, the nurses could not keep a good track on the baby's heart beat. I think it was around 4:30am and they discovered that his heartbeat was continually dropping. I was 10cm dilated but his head was not dropping into my pelvis so the Doctor knew that pushing now would only drop his heartrate more. So guess what...they sent me for an emergency c-section! Wasn't this the exact same thing I wanted 6 hours ago!!!!

So at 5:00amish I was brought up to the OR. I layed there on the table with tears streaming out of my eyes knowing that I would soon have a great baby boy with me! I just kept saying to Jordan, we're gonna have a baby, we're gonna have a boy! It was all I could muster.

At 5:28am Zachary came into this world!

Professional Pictures

2011-04-28T05:25:00.000-07:00

Shannon Vine Photography http://blog.shannonvine.com/ came by while we were in the Sault to take some great photos of our llittle ducky!!!! Here are just a few of the FANTASTIC shots!!!

Easter

2011-04-28T05:16:00.001-07:00

It was Zach's first easter this past weekend...as it'll be his first EVERYTHING this year I wanna document it well!!! Here is his great photo with the easter bunny!!

Meeting Grandpa

2011-04-15T17:41:00.001-07:00

My Dad was so excited to have his first grandchild. All of his siblings have grandchildren and some even have great-grandchildren!! Since my Dad has had his stroke and heart issues, he's grown a lot softer and gentler. He was so thrilled to get to meet his "little Willy" as he has grown accustomed to calling him.

One Month Old

2011-04-09T06:26:00.001-07:00

Zach is one month old and here is the collection of photos from each week so far!!

Welcome Zachary!!!

2011-03-27T14:14:00.001-07:00

Button Blue Baby Announcements

Personalized cards for babies, Valentines, Easter and Mother's Day.

View the entire collection of cards.

Our Big Arrival

2011-03-17T06:23:00.001-07:00

He Is Here!!

We are so absolutely thrilled to announce the arrival of Zachary William Walker born on Saturday March 12, 2011 at 5:28am weighing 8lbs 13oz. Zachary was delivered by emergency c-section. I will make another post all about his birth story.

We are so absolutely over the moon with our little ducky!!

Week 39

2011-03-04T05:45:00.000-08:00

WOW!! I can't believe I have made it this far! I honestly and truly never felt like this day would come! Although this pregnancy has seemed to fly by, it still seems so long to the unknown end.

I am a very anxious and impatient person. I like to know details, I like to plan, I like to prepare and MOST of all....I HATE SURPRISES!!! Surprises give me panic attacks, they make me cry when I don't know what is happening and can't prepare myself! I used to sneak through all of my Christmas gifts so I would know what I was expecting and it gave me comfort.

Well this little Dude living inside of me doesn't know this about me...or rather, he doesn't care! I know he will come at his own pace, I know he will come into this world when he is ready and it will be perfect. But dang-nab-it, I just wanna know when he will come!

I am so ready for him to come visit us for the rest of our lives. I am ready to be a Momma and to see my parents being Grandparents. I am ready to see how my husband handles being a Daddy.

So c'mon Little Ducky!!!!!! Make your way into our lives sooner than later so that we and your far -away Grandma get a good visit!!!

Week 24

2010-11-19T14:03:00.000-08:00

Well here we are, Week 24, and I am realizing ONE thing I don't like about being pregnant. See, I get migraines...bad ones...tension headaches...bad ones. Nothing seems to alleviate the pain but pain killers. I can't take them now. I'm sorry, but Tylenol Regular strength just don't cut it!

I love my little ducky, he is so special to me already and totally worth the pain. But, it doesn't mean i can't complain! I had a very sleepless night last night because my neck and shoulder were pounding so terribly I could not sleep. Saw a chiropractor today and a little bit of relief. I don't want to keep chowing down Tylenol, but what else do I do? I used my little hand held massager, I used a "heating" thing, nothing worked....bleh!

But then I think, well if I could actually take something stronger there is someone SOOOOO special to me already who wouldn't be here. So ya know what, I'm willing to take the extra aches and pains to be a good Mama Duck!!!!!

Heavy Heart

2010-11-10T16:10:00.000-08:00

I am so saddened today by such devastating news. The brother of good friends of mine was tragically taken from us too early. A 31 year old husband, father, brother, son, friend had a tragic accident. He is leaving behind a beautiful wife, an energetic daughter and a spitting image son. They were also expecting a third little "nut" on the way.

I cannot even fathom what they are going through. I pray for comfort and strength for them as they go through this crazy, hectic, terrible time. I pray that family and friends are there for them and can help them through this.

I have been praying all day for God to give them some kind of explanation for this tragic event. That God gives them comfort and understanding and that they can remain strong in their faith.

I just pray that they know how much he loved them, adored them and would have done anything for them.

Blessings, Love and Faith go out to the King Family.

We've got a DONALD!!!!!

2010-10-22T15:16:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO!!! We finally found out that our little ducky is a BOY :) I am so excited!!!!

I love this photo cause the baby is looking straight at us :) i know he can't wait to meet us and we can't wait to meet him!!!!!!

I can't wait to meet our littly ducky!!

Donald or Daisy???

2010-10-21T04:37:00.001-07:00

Well I am beyond excited this morning!!!!!!

We get to find out whether our little Ducky is a Donald or a Daisy!!!!! --- NO those are not the name choices lol ---- I am so excited to have my first ultrasound today and then SOOOOOOOOO nervous about our ultrasound on Monday! It is at Mac and it will be double checking our little duckies heart to make sure our genetics didn't affect it! ha ha!

So wish us luck that we get to find out and that this little Ducky is not shy!

BTW, I am 19 weeks pregnant and will be 20 on Friday! HALF WAY THERE!!!!!!!

Week 12/13

2010-09-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

Well, I have not written in quite a while...and there is a reson for that....

WE ARE EXPECTING OUR FIRST BABY!!!!

woohoo!!!!! we are beyond elated with this unexpected turn of events. Friday is my entering into my 13th week. Little did I know when I started my "weight loss journey" that I was actually tracking my pregnancy!!!

So I guess my little postings will probably be turned into a pregnany blog lol

YIPPE!!!!! :)

Week 4 & 5

2010-07-14T03:32:00.000-07:00

Well weeks four and five are not going as planned either. This just isn't panning out well!!! grrrr!!! but I do have a good excuse this time. Just won't tell ya what it is because it's personal! :) So I am not continuing to run, but I am continuing to walk. I would like to try and walk daily...at least 30 minutes. I should be able to do this seeing as I only have ONE job to work over the summer months!!!!

I have not weighed myself lately...keep forgetting and then I eat breakfast. So i shall try tomorrow to weigh myself to see how I maintained over my vacation. I did succeed in my not stopping for fast food burgers and fries while travelling! Packing a lunch certainly helped that! Woohoo for small victories!!

Until next week....

Week Three

2010-07-06T06:21:00.000-07:00

ugh...so I have not been so great this week.

I had a medical issue that made it extremely painful to do my regular running. I also find that when I am sulking in my pain I eat too much!!! So this week I am up. I now have 7.2lbs to reach my closest 10s group.

I am also going on vacation this week (home to the Sault), so I am hoping that I don't overindulge up there and come back needing to lose 10 lbs!!!!! I am bringing my iPod and shoes and going to try and do Week Two of the C25K program again. I am also planning ahead and packing a lunch for the trip so that when I get hungry at lunch time I have a healthy lunch and don't have to resort to the regular Wendy's/Tim Horton's that are the only rest stops.

So, this week I plan to run 3 times, attempt to eat more veggies and not go overboard on the sweet little indulgences in life... wish me luck!

2 days....

2010-06-28T18:58:00.000-07:00

Week Two

2010-06-28T18:52:00.000-07:00

Oh dear...oh dear...well not a good way to start a post!! :) I have "lost" .5lbs this week...or maybe lol :) Well today I have probably gained it plus back. Being a teacher and the last days of school treats are in no short supply!!! So needless to say, my "starting over" from this week will need to happen again!!!!!

So I am going to try it all again, re-determine my willingness and hope that my hubby doesn't parade Dairy Queen in my face again!!!!

So for this week I will continue on the 5.2lbs weight loss, continue with the C25K program (btw on W2D2 tomorrow) and swim at least 3 times or bike ride if swimming not an option.

I shall check back!!

Setbacks

2010-06-25T04:31:00.000-07:00

Well this email I received could NOT have come at a better time. I just weighed myself and I am up...gulp...I haven't made the best choices this week and haven't been as committed to the working out...so why am I surprised? But this is just the reminder I needed. It is from Jillian Michaels (of the Biggest Loser and Losing It).

From LOSING IT! With Jillian Michaels
Friday, June 25, 2010

Overcoming a Setback
It happens — you miss a few workouts and you feel like you've fallen off the weight-loss wagon. It's tempting to mentally slap yourself around, right? (Or head for the fridge.) Before you start, I want to remind you of something: Being hard on yourself is the Old You.

The New You knows how to deal with setbacks and get back on the wagon. And after all, there are no mistakes, just learning experiences. Weight loss is a process — it takes time. You will encounter small failures — everyone does — but every pound you gain can be lost.

And if you miss a workout, it's not the end of the world! Get to the gym the next day and continue to focus on your short-term goals. Just because you made bad choices today doesn't mean you can't start over tomorrow. New day? New beginning. And don't you forget it!

Week One

2010-06-21T04:40:00.000-07:00

I have heard many times from different weight loss people that you can always hit the restart button. So today...Monday June 21, 2010 I am hitting my reset button. I will (try) to post every week with my pounds lost and what I did that week to make myself proud.

So this week my first goal is to lose the 5.6 pounds it will take for me to get to the next lowest 10s category. I am not giving myself a week to do this, I am going to be flexible. I will try my darndest, but if i miss I will reevaluate my time line!

So this week I plan to start my 5.6 lbs weight loss, I plan to do three 30 minute walk/runs, and 3 times on the Wii fit OR Workout video. I will let you know how I did on my Week Two post :)

Keep Fit!

Second Time Around

2010-06-20T13:22:00.000-07:00

Well...I have said this before...but then again this usually happens. I had posted a while ago about the Couch to 5k Program. Well I am going to start it again.

I want to be a Mom. I want to be pregnant. I want to make my husband a Daddy. I want to have my body healthy for this future God given precious thing.

I am not healthy. I am not ready for my body to carry such a precious gift. I need to be.

So I am making this pledge to myself that I will stick with it now. I know I won't be 100% faithful. But I will ask God each day for guidance to get me through this process.

If you see me around ask me how I am doing. Having to fess up to people is my worst fear. Maybe if soooooo many people are holding accountable I won't fail.

Pray for me, pray for my future, pray for some stinking determination!!!

New Moon - Twilight Saga

2010-03-20T08:14:00.000-07:00

Well this is a little known PUBLIC tidbit of information but I am in love....with the Twilight Series!! I love the books, I love the movies and I LOVE that my husband will watch it with me!

Well last night at midnight was the release of the second movie "New Moon"...a couple of friends and I went to Best Buy to get the release....even my adorable, loving husband joined in!! :)

I love these movies not because they are a teen hit sensation, but because of the love and emotion that they evoke. The passion and exuberance that Edward shows Bella and vice versa is amazing. This is the kind of passion and devotion I want to have in my own life. Now I know that this is fiction, I know vampires aren't real and werewolves and the such, but love is real, love is passion and why wouldn't you enjoy seeing a good old fashioned passionate love story!!

I have watched Twilight more the a few times :), saw New Moon four times in theatres (only paid to see it 1.5 times) and now will watch the DVD over and over!

The awesome thing is that I have found my Edward. My adorable, loving husband is learning each day to love me with the passion and exuberance that Edward loves Bella. I love that he will watch it with me, support me in what I like and tries to emulate that for me! He's awesome :)

I love my Edward and how much he makes me feel like a Bella :)

Love

2010-03-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

Each day I remember why I married my husband.

Each day I challenge myself to remember why I married my husband.

Each day has a new set of challenges to give me reason to remember why I love my husband.

I thank the Lord each day that he is in my life and loves me beyond the stars.

I love my husband :)

Random Dozen

2010-01-07T10:23:00.001-08:00

My friend and blog-friend Lucy, always has fun things like this on her blog so I thought I would join her….

1. It's early morning, about 2:00AM, and you're driving home. You come to a red light and sit there. There is no one in sight for miles around. Do you wait it out or run the light?
No, i wait for it. I am paranoid of breaking the law – as any good citizen should be! haha :) but no, i couldn’t do it, i would feel MUCH to MUCH guilt!

2. If you had the chance to re-do the last 24 hours, would you change anything?

oh gosh…that’s a toughie…it’s been a heck of a 24 hours!! I probably wouldn’t change anything because a lot of big discoveries/realizations have been made.

3. When you reply to someone's comment on your blog, do you reply in your comments or go to her blog and comment? (Or email her)

I respond in the comments.

4. Your favorite Disney movie is:
oh so many to name!!! toy story, beauty and the beast, monster’s inc, aladdin…

5. Do you recycle?
yes i do

6. Games of strategy or games of chance?
i love any type of board or card game :)

7. Do you have any recurring dreams?
yes but not for a long while…when i was a kid i used to dream that the sasquatch was trying to chase me into a basement and kill me…wonderful eh!

8. What did you learn from your first real job?
That i hate working for so little money, but needed the money! haha

9. Do you buy or borrow most books?
um, i guess i would have to say i buy more than i borrow.

10. What fashion trend of the past did you say you'd never wear again but did?
I don’t think I have repeated any of my fashion trends because they were HORRIBLE! hahaha :)

11. When do you start Christmas shopping?
Mostly in December at some point, but if the need arises I pick stuff up throughout the year…

12. Have you ever been so happy that you literally jumped up and down for a few seconds? If so, what was the occasion?
Yes, when I found out my friend and I were going to be allowed to travel alone (with a tour bus) to Detroit to see the Backstreet Boys!!!!!!!! :)

What Have I Done today to make me feel proud?

2009-11-10T10:56:00.000-08:00

Well I am embarking on a new mission in life. I have been busy this past year planning for a wedding. It takes a lot of time, money and commitment. Now I have a new plan. I want to be a Mom. I want to take some time before being a Mom in order to be a good Wife, but I know I want to be a Mom. Now, I'm not going to be a Mom in the shape/weight I am in right now. I need to lose weight before I can even think of being pregnant.

So this is my plan....I am doing a variation of the "Couch to 5k" Program. I have started walking to get my plan going and this is the second day so far! I am also desperately trying to eat better, eat more vegetables and more fruit!

I have also joined a group on Facebook called the "Biggest Loser Fundraiser". It is a great group for moral support and encouragement! Already it worked today since I didn't want to do my second walk and two wonderful ladies encouraged me to get going because I would feel better afterwards and they are absolutely right!! So once I get some figures about percentage lost or pounds shed I will post!!!!

I now present to you….Mr & Mrs Walker

2009-10-27T18:50:00.001-07:00

On October 17, 2009 at 1:00pm my life long dream and prayers came true.

I married the man that the Lord had sent to me. He is a wonderful man, who has a huge heart, helping hands and is a huggable husband…sorry we’re learning the letter H in class this week!

The Lord blessed us with wonderful friends to spend the day with, a great weather day and a wonderful photographer!

Jordan and I could not have asked for a greater day! I think we had kept it so simple that there was nothing that could go wrong and thankfully nothing did!

It will definitely take some getting used to, to be Mrs. Walker, but i am really enjoying the ring of it! :)

Just One Word

2009-10-27T18:49:00.001-07:00

I got this blog from Lucy and thought it was a neat idea!
The point is to answer each of the questions using only one word.

1.Where is your cell phone? Purse

2.Your hair? annoying

3. Your mother? friend

4. Your father? love

5. Your favourite food? pizza

6. Your dream last night? none

7. Your favorite drink? Pepsi

8. Your dream/goal? mom

9. What room are you in? class

10. Your hobby? movies

11. Your fear? fatherless

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? family

13. Where were you last night? babysitting

14.Something you aren’t? easy-going

15. Muffins? chocolate chip

16. Wish list item? bigbed

17. Where did you grow up? Ontario

18. Last thing you did? Paper planes

19. What are you wearing? shirt

20. Your TV? home

21. Your pets? future

22. Your friends? listening

23. Your life? frustrating

24. Your mood? frustrated

25. Missing someone? Momma

27. Something you’re not wearing? Make-up

28. Your favorite store? Old Navy

29. Your favorite color? pink

30. When was the last time you laughed? jorja

31. Last time you cried? morning

32. Best Friend? Bobbie

33. One place that I go over and over again? mall

34. One person who emails me regularly? Donna

35. Favorite place to eat? Kelsey’s

Well some of them aren’t one word answers but it is really hard to answer those with just one word!! Go ahead…you try!!

I Love My Daddy

2009-07-26T12:24:00.000-07:00

As many of you know, my Dad has not had the greatest time lately. Since December he has been shocked (internally and externally) 20 times. His heart is not doing what it should. The easiest way my Mom can explain it, is that he has a pump problem and electrical problem. If that makes sense!

My Dad has been in the Toronto General Hospital (TGH) for almost a week this time. He was supposed to be in for a day surgery, but things did not go as we had planned. But thank the Lord that he was at the TGH for the surgery because some of Ontario's best doctors are here right now.

I chose to come into Toronto to be with my Mom for a few days. It is hard sitting at the hospital all day by yourself. Hard and tiring! Plus my Dad worried about my Mom a lot, so it was nice to comfort my Dad a little knowing someone was with his Love.

I am very scared watching my Father go through all this. Very scared and I feel a little guilty because I am scared for myself too. I am scared that my Daddy won't be there to walk me down the aisle when I get married....either because he is not feeling well, or he is (HEAVEN FORBID) not here.

Seeing my parents go through this tough and emotional time really shows me what kind of marriage I truly want. I want to be there for Jordan whenever I can, even if it causes me some discomfort. I want to know that Jordan can always count on me for support. I want a marriage that my parents have so wonderfully displayed for me! My parents are truly my inspiration. I really did not see that when I was younger, but growing up now, being apart from them and now really getting to know them as adults. They are such fantastic people and I love them dearly!

So I just want to say thank you to EVERYONE who has been praying for my Dad and my family. We are truly feeling the prayers, as my Dad has had good days, no more shocks and should be getting out of the hospital soon. Now this won't solve everything, but we will continue to pray and trust that God will work this out in his time. I pray (selfishly) everyday that God will allow my Dad to walk me down the aisle...this means more to me than I thought!

So, please continue to pray and ask how he's doing! It's nice knowing so many wonderful people are thinking about ya, and I am thinking about you all as well!!!!!

God Bless!!

Wedding Shower

2009-05-16T20:35:00.001-07:00

I had my first wedding shower this evening in the Sault. My mom put it on...and did a WONDERFUL job i might add...

I had many wonderful ladies who attended that just mean so much to me! They have helped me grow up, learn many things and thrive in my faith. I do not know what my life would have been if it weren't for these ladies!

So here are a few pictures and thanks very much!! God Bless you all!

Engagement

2009-03-21T16:56:00.000-07:00

Jordan and I got engaged in July and we decided upon a photographer in Octoberish….we finally got the engagement photos done in February…outside! But thankfully it was one of the warmest days…just windy. So here are a few of our pictures! Love ya Jordan!

Praise the Lord!

2009-03-12T19:03:00.001-07:00

My father had heart surgery today to implant a new defibralator device so his heart can be paced and hopefully he will not have many if any more heart episodes. I am praising the Lord because it went well!!! It went quicker than the doctors thought, he is resting comfortably in the hospital watching his curling :) I am happy to be able to go with my Uncle Art to pick them up in Toronto...if all goes well at the defib clinic in the AM...So praise the Lord that my dad is ok! I need my papa so much and am terrified to lose him anytime soon. I thank the Lord every day for the family I have, the family I am about to be related to and the friends who I consider family. Even though my life may seem in shambles some times, I know my family, future family and family friends will be there for me! I can see this support on facebook as so many people stand behind me. So PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!

Frustrations

2009-03-10T19:34:00.000-07:00

I have had some major frustrations in my life lately. It just seems like somethings will never let up and that is frustrating!!!

I have found out that I will have to pay additional taxes this year, even after paying extra out of every single pay cheque I received....frustrating...

Hearing something you are about to buy is one price and then all of a sudden it goes up...frustrating

Hearing many friends around you are getting into school boards and making money...frustrating

Trying to work three jobs to pay bills/loans/etc... and still not being able to make it each month...frustrating.

I keep praying to God that he will lead me to a path that will finally be a little less bumpy. I know that God does not give us anything we cannot handle, but I really think I am coming to my breaking point. It is hard to go through life with so many frustrating disappointments!

Well see I told ya some posts would be completely me complaining!! haha :)

First Post

2009-03-10T10:37:00.000-07:00

Well so many people nowadays are creating blogs and sharing so many neat and wonderful things so I thought I would jump into the world and share outloud!!

My bloggings may not always have a reason, they may be more of an outlet and just ramblings...but hey it's my place...I should be able to!! haha!

Life's Little Lessons

It's Beginning to Look a lot like Christmas...

Eight Months

Happy Halloween!!

Trust

DONE, DONE, DONE

Sleep Training

Weeks 25 - 28

Setbacks

Week 3

Papa

3-in-1

Week 2

Week One

It's a New Day...

Two Months Old

Zachary's Birth Story

Professional Pictures

Easter

Meeting Grandpa

One Month Old

Welcome Zachary!!!

Our Big Arrival

Week 39

Week 24

Heavy Heart

We've got a DONALD!!!!!

Donald or Daisy???

Week 12/13

Week 4 & 5

Week Three

2 days....

Week Two

Setbacks

Week One

Second Time Around

New Moon - Twilight Saga

Love

Random Dozen

What Have I Done today to make me feel proud?

I now present to you….Mr & Mrs Walker

Just One Word

I got this blog from Lucy and thought it was a neat idea!The point is to answer each of the questions using only one word.

1.Where is your cell phone? Purse

I Love My Daddy

Wedding Shower

Engagement

Praise the Lord!

Frustrations

First Post

I got this blog from Lucy and thought it was a neat idea!
The point is to answer each of the questions using only one word.