I Love My Daddy

As many of you know, my Dad has not had the greatest time lately. Since December he has been shocked (internally and externally) 20 times. His heart is not doing what it should. The easiest way my Mom can explain it, is that he has a pump problem and electrical problem. If that makes sense!

My Dad has been in the Toronto General Hospital (TGH) for almost a week this time. He was supposed to be in for a day surgery, but things did not go as we had planned. But thank the Lord that he was at the TGH for the surgery because some of Ontario's best doctors are here right now.

I chose to come into Toronto to be with my Mom for a few days. It is hard sitting at the hospital all day by yourself. Hard and tiring! Plus my Dad worried about my Mom a lot, so it was nice to comfort my Dad a little knowing someone was with his Love.

I am very scared watching my Father go through all this. Very scared and I feel a little guilty because I am scared for myself too. I am scared that my Daddy won't be there to walk me down the aisle when I get married....either because he is not feeling well, or he is (HEAVEN FORBID) not here.

Seeing my parents go through this tough and emotional time really shows me what kind of marriage I truly want. I want to be there for Jordan whenever I can, even if it causes me some discomfort. I want to know that Jordan can always count on me for support. I want a marriage that my parents have so wonderfully displayed for me! My parents are truly my inspiration. I really did not see that when I was younger, but growing up now, being apart from them and now really getting to know them as adults. They are such fantastic people and I love them dearly!

So I just want to say thank you to EVERYONE who has been praying for my Dad and my family. We are truly feeling the prayers, as my Dad has had good days, no more shocks and should be getting out of the hospital soon. Now this won't solve everything, but we will continue to pray and trust that God will work this out in his time. I pray (selfishly) everyday that God will allow my Dad to walk me down the aisle...this means more to me than I thought!

So, please continue to pray and ask how he's doing! It's nice knowing so many wonderful people are thinking about ya, and I am thinking about you all as well!!!!!

God Bless!!

Wedding Shower

I had my first wedding shower this evening in the Sault. My mom put it on...and did a WONDERFUL job i might add...

I had many wonderful ladies who attended that just mean so much to me! They have helped me grow up, learn many things and thrive in my faith. I do not know what my life would have been if it weren't for these ladies!

So here are a few pictures and thanks very much!! God Bless you all!

Engagement

Jordan and I got engaged in July and we decided upon a photographer in Octoberish….we finally got the engagement photos done in February…outside! But thankfully it was one of the warmest days…just windy. So here are a few of our pictures! Love ya Jordan!

Praise the Lord!

My father had heart surgery today to implant a new defibralator device so his heart can be paced and hopefully he will not have many if any more heart episodes. I am praising the Lord because it went well!!! It went quicker than the doctors thought, he is resting comfortably in the hospital watching his curling :) I am happy to be able to go with my Uncle Art to pick them up in Toronto...if all goes well at the defib clinic in the AM...So praise the Lord that my dad is ok! I need my papa so much and am terrified to lose him anytime soon. I thank the Lord every day for the family I have, the family I am about to be related to and the friends who I consider family. Even though my life may seem in shambles some times, I know my family, future family and family friends will be there for me! I can see this support on facebook as so many people stand behind me. So PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!

Frustrations

I have had some major frustrations in my life lately. It just seems like somethings will never let up and that is frustrating!!!

I have found out that I will have to pay additional taxes this year, even after paying extra out of every single pay cheque I received....frustrating...

Hearing something you are about to buy is one price and then all of a sudden it goes up...frustrating

Hearing many friends around you are getting into school boards and making money...frustrating

Trying to work three jobs to pay bills/loans/etc... and still not being able to make it each month...frustrating.

I keep praying to God that he will lead me to a path that will finally be a little less bumpy. I know that God does not give us anything we cannot handle, but I really think I am coming to my breaking point. It is hard to go through life with so many frustrating disappointments!

Well see I told ya some posts would be completely me complaining!! haha :)

First Post

Well so many people nowadays are creating blogs and sharing so many neat and wonderful things so I thought I would jump into the world and share outloud!!

My bloggings may not always have a reason, they may be more of an outlet and just ramblings...but hey it's my place...I should be able to!! haha!