DONE, DONE, DONE

THAT'S IT!!!!! I'm done being half-assed (sorry for crude word, couldn't think of anything else...). I'm done doing things partly, only trying some of the time. I"M DONE!! I'm so mad at myself for not having the will power, stick-to-it-iveness.... I"M DONE!! I'm done letting sweets have control over me in such a major way! I NEED to lose this weight...not want, NEED. I've GOTTA do this! I HAVE TOO!!!!!!

I have been tracking with weight watchers and "trying" for 6 weeks now and only lost 5lbs. I keep going up and down, up and down and I'm done with that. I keep complaining that my jeans don't fit, but who's fault is that?!?!? If I'm not willing to do something about it, I'm not allowed to complain!! So I'm going to try and keep up with my weekly posts here to put it out there as well in a group I'm in on facebook. So here are my goals for this week:

GOALS:
- Drink 4 water bottles a day
- Eat more fruits and veggies!!!
- RESIST!!!! I WILL have will power. I WILL have will power...
- PRAY specifically for people in the group for specific goals - if you need a specific prayer from here leave me a comment.

please, please, please pray for me. I know power of prayer works. I am going to make it a priority to make time for prayer as well. I think having God in my corner to do this will make it better.

Setbacks

Well today was not a good day food wise. I don't know what came over me, but I just did not think today while eating. I kept putting things in my mouth than 5 minutes later wondering what happened. Why did I do that? Why didn't I stop myself? I ate too much. BUT I did something I never do....I didn't just continue to eat crap, I didn't just stop caring and give up, I stopped, I reevaluated and I decided to make a change at the next meal. So for supper I had a slimfast, oranges and a cottage cheese. I changed my pace before I spiraled out of control. I caught myself. I never catch myself and start over.

I know this time will be different. I know I will have setbacks or days where I don't think about what I'm eating, but instead of giving up and just throwing in the towel and eating more crap, I will start over. I will accomplish my goals!

Just thank goodness weigh in isn't till Thursday!!! :)

Week 3

Well Week 3 is officially done and I am proud to say that I have now lost 10.6 pounds since I started Weight Watchers!!!! WOOHOO!!!!! I think I am actually going to be able to stick with this. I have not wanted to "cheat" very many times and when I just can't resist I eat a little snack and then I document it honestly. I have managed to stay inside my point value...in fact I find it hard to get all my points in some days. I am truly loving the weight watchers program!! It is so easy to follow, easy to use (as there is an app on my phone!) and I'm finally being honest with it!!!!

I was hoping to get at least 3-4 walks in this upcoming week as well, but I have come down with a nasty cold making it really hard to breath when I get my breath going....so until this darn cold goes away looks like I'm benched!! But I figure as long as I keep my food going well I should still be to lose weight!

So here's hoping week 4 is as successful as the past 3!! :)

Week 2

Well week 2 is finished and didn't do so well this time. I went up 2.8 lbs. I didn't eat well, but I was walking so I guess food is truly 90% of it all. I stuck to my points though so I'm not entirely sure why I went up so dramatically.

I recommitted after my last weigh-in and have been doing well again. Here's hoping this week can be a better week.

Today wasn't the greatest eating since we traveled all day today. I didn't get to drink my water (for fear of always having to pee!) and I had Wendy's for lunch. I tracked my food, I was honest, I didn't hide my fast food outing at all. I stayed within my points. Tomorrow if I can get up the will I need to go grocery shopping and get everything I need. But first, I think I need to prepare a detailed menu plan and grocery list so that I don't go off balance again.

This is hard! I love food, I love eating, I love tasting. I know it's not about denying, but in moderation, but it has to be about denying to an extent. I have to deny myself fast food everyday, I have to deny myself the pleasure of eating chocolate as I was. Now, how I was eating wasn't healthy, wasn't right and wasn't good for me. But it was wonderful. I truly believe I am addicted to food. I know it's not an excuse and I'm not using it as one to keep eating. I am done being fat and I know exactly what to do to get it to leave. Now if that will power of mine would just make the commitment to me and stick around!!

Week One

Well here I sit. Week one is done. I lost 3.8 pounds by just managing my food. I did manage a walk one morning, but I forgot to bring my shoes to the Sault so I had some BIG blisters from my sandals. Now I have my shoes and am just waiting for the next moment to walk. I like walking in the morning because it is fresh, cooler and gets my day going. I am hoping for more morning walks when my sweet little son wakes me up oh so early!

So back to the 3.8...woohoo!!!!! I think it's great and I want it to keep going. We have had several meals that weren't the best because we were out. Also, how does ice cream become so appealing the moment I am trying to eat healthier?!?!?!? But, anyways, I want to keep up the loss so I will keep trying, I will keep making wise decisions and I will keep drinking my water!!!

Gotta keep going, gotta keep losing, gotta do it!!!!!!!!!

It's a new day!