As many of you know, my Dad has not had the greatest time lately. Since December he has been shocked (internally and externally) 20 times. His heart is not doing what it should. The easiest way my Mom can explain it, is that he has a pump problem and electrical problem. If that makes sense!
My Dad has been in the Toronto General Hospital (TGH) for almost a week this time. He was supposed to be in for a day surgery, but things did not go as we had planned. But thank the Lord that he was at the TGH for the surgery because some of Ontario's best doctors are here right now.
I chose to come into Toronto to be with my Mom for a few days. It is hard sitting at the hospital all day by yourself. Hard and tiring! Plus my Dad worried about my Mom a lot, so it was nice to comfort my Dad a little knowing someone was with his Love.
I am very scared watching my Father go through all this. Very scared and I feel a little guilty because I am scared for myself too. I am scared that my Daddy won't be there to walk me down the aisle when I get married....either because he is not feeling well, or he is (HEAVEN FORBID) not here.
Seeing my parents go through this tough and emotional time really shows me what kind of marriage I truly want. I want to be there for Jordan whenever I can, even if it causes me some discomfort. I want to know that Jordan can always count on me for support. I want a marriage that my parents have so wonderfully displayed for me! My parents are truly my inspiration. I really did not see that when I was younger, but growing up now, being apart from them and now really getting to know them as adults. They are such fantastic people and I love them dearly!
So I just want to say thank you to EVERYONE who has been praying for my Dad and my family. We are truly feeling the prayers, as my Dad has had good days, no more shocks and should be getting out of the hospital soon. Now this won't solve everything, but we will continue to pray and trust that God will work this out in his time. I pray (selfishly) everyday that God will allow my Dad to walk me down the aisle...this means more to me than I thought!
So, please continue to pray and ask how he's doing! It's nice knowing so many wonderful people are thinking about ya, and I am thinking about you all as well!!!!!
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